From dark to dawn!

 After a very stressful evening the other day involving the age-old self-doubt, do i belong here (job) anymore, should I continue or should i come out and if i should, am i ready to face the world wholly on business and am i confident from inside, have i had self discovery of my strengths, am i ready? While the stress may have settled for a while, it definitely opened a very very critical to-do for me and my life - Introspect your life right now and do something to go to next stage. Don't run away from this Self-awareness thing. get comfortable. This is where that magical growth lies. Thing will come inside out once you done sitting enough. that's when you will have something to give yourself peace and share something truly original, something from heart that would have changed ur life obviously but now genuinely will change other's lives as well. Thinking is a labour. Reflecting is difficult. But Ankur - you do. 

Yes I shall. I am seeing these practices more n more coming in different forums - be it books/ tweets or forwards or in general content on social media. Write/ Reflect/ Spend time alone/ Gratitude.. !! 

And i am getting better at it.

One thing I am happy about it my reading has become more consistent now than ever. I may still be tossing among books but i can say, I am slowly liking the act of reading and "literally" freshening up my mind and my thoughts. The positivity that comes along and due to which so many possibilities emerge first in mind and then in life around me. Today morning started with good 40 mins reading of a new book I came across - Chop Wood, Carry Water - How to love the process of becoming great!

Such fresh thoughts, small stories. Ever page ended up with Ahaa moment :-) Followed by some serendipity on twitter - I coming across a lady's micro-blog which was about personal greatness. read a few Vitamins as she called it before hitting the gym and buoy - what a lovely workout I had. 

And by 12 I already had had a shower and with prayers was ready for the day. I had to conduct an interview of a lady senior to me and while i was a little edgy yesterday, I was "mentally present" today and took the call in the stride and I can say it was one of the best interviews I have taken -just non-judgemental listening makes such a difference. I was able to understand really where is she coming from and automatically questions came to my mind. I took a call on the fact that lady was able to carry fwd the conversation without stumbling with a fairly good amount of confidence and command on language. Had a good hands-on - what else do we want. Selected.

I definitely can see through the rise in self-awareness. I am more aware of my feelings and emotions. In fact so many times, I see myself being directed to right book/ tweet or a string of thought that is an add-on in my direction towards my goal..

What is my goal: To be as good as I can as a human, try things out, learn and gain experience and serve others in the process and share with them my learnings and help world around me a better place! 

Closing in: I feel so light at heart, peaceful. I feel in control. And i feel like reading more. Not in a hurry to fill my calendar. I will probably, make a few contents/ collages..and publish the PASE topics for the team..

Thank you god for a lovely day - truly thank you!! :-) Also thank you god for lovely blessing in form of a second healthy baby (girl) :-) Thank you god 2021 is so special already. I am strong. I am positive, peaceful, confident. Thank you god, we are Brand new Diamonds in 2021 - it's a done deal..

Be with me, keep your protective hand around everybody who matter in my life..

Give me wisdom, give me strength. Purify me so that I can connect and serve thousands and lacs of people in getting healthy, wealthy and spiritually better off..